I feel stretch marks...coming

I got a compliment today. My BSF leader...of all people said I challenge her in scripture. This is news to me. I struggle each week with my lesson. Version after version of the bible trying to decipher the parables and i challenge her...Wow what a compliment.

For the first time in months. I am using my alarm clock. I have not used it in month. Between 3:30AM and 5:00AM I just woke up. No real explanation just awake and don't go back to sleep. Now all of a sudden if not for the alarm I would sleep till near 7:00AM it seems. While this is not necessarily a bad thing the funny thing is. I began to define myself by my 5:00AM quite time. Taking pride in it. Oh how the lord loves to deal with our pride.

This week, the parables of the treasure, pearl and the net. Big discussion and no real interpretation or plain speaking from Jesus. Is it Israel, is it me I can not tell. So my decision...Boiling Frogs. Its a scientific fact if you drop a frog in boiling water he'll jump out. If you put him in room temp water and raise the heat he'll boil to death.

God, let the main things be the plain things and the plain things be the main things. Don't let me boil but meet me in the fire. It is there I am forged and looking for a reflection. Let it be you, the reflection. In the name of the precious savior Jesus...Amen

Weeds and Seeds who can tell

So when you get up between 3:00 and 5:00 AM you have a lot of time on your hands. This is really good for things like personal growth, getting down and dirty into God's word but then there is that time you start thinking. Your mind rolls over and over. If you do not have something on itunes you can concentrate on or your not doing your lesson or something, this time can get really scary. You allow yourself to be convinced of things that just are not true. I think this is what God meant in Matthew 13 when he discussed the weeds and the seeds. While we were sleeping he said and enemy planted weeds among the good seeds he had planted. Can't pull those suckers out either. If the weeds are removed from the good seeds they will never grow into maturity into the fullness of the depth of knowing him. So they must stay. They are all around us and we can't hardly tell one from another. My friend Marcy...see sweetness on places I hang out...has a quote on her Face that says "I hope the fruit of my life says it all, if it doesn't I'm in trouble." I read this every time I see her precious face on Facebook. It is in fact the fruit that separates the weeds from the seeds.

Dear God, let me be a seed and let me seek the answers in your word and only in your word. Amen.