do you ever really know people well enough to talk about them?

I am so bad at this blogging thing. I have loads of drafts full of life's lessons taught by God, family but mostly by my blessed friends. I guess I am not sure if anyone is ever really reading them. I guess you have to keep up with the blogging to get a real following...hehe but then again. Sometimes writing it all down documenting my lessons drives them home.

So here it is...I am so sick of being fat. My girlfriends are too. WE discuss the things we would like to do and I so envy another friend of mine who works out several times a week. I envy the desire to go to a gym and with diligence think about the things you put in your mouth. Then on the flip side of that I am reminded of people I know who seem obsessed with what they eat or I am told only go to the gym because there is nothing else to do so I need to do something. Well I am here to say...its time to find some dang balance. I am all for a partner to work out with but I am not going to a gym...not doing it. I feel like morning is better but morning to me and morning to others well sometimes that's just two different things. I want accountability to this thing but I have been and am in accountability in other areas of my life and Geez some days that is almost unbearable. My life is overwhelming me and I am not going to down play the activities, expectations, or obligations but I am overwhelmed because I am not focused...There is no real goal. I am overwhelmed because I am running behind trying to catch up rather than running ahead and leading the way, clearing the path. I used to do this...I think I got tired and now I am tired all the time. I am rediscovering books. I am rediscovering vigilant prayer life. I feel the effects the changes and I think I might be ready to start the race again. However, mostly it comes down to choices. The first choice...begin my day with God in prayer let him order it then follow his instructions. The rest, its his body (temple), his house, his finances, his spouse, his children, his business, his closing...treat it all that way.